“就说我不在。。。”

我正“躲”在办公室里，静悄悄地逃避着楼上等着我开会的一群人。
一群等着我开一个我没必要出席的会议的人。
让我不由自主的想避开一些拿不定主意的人。
电话已经响了好几次但我都没接。只想静静地躲过这一切。
我不想开会，更不想见到某些人。
不想帮她们解决一些永远也解决不了的问题，
解决一些我没必要解决的问题。
我很累，也很厌倦这种‘逃亡’地生活。
电话又响了。。。真地好烦啊！
可以说我不在吗？

A smile that melts...

Awww... this face is just too cute for words. When he looks at you like that, you can hardly refuse him anything. Wish my folks will bring him back here but that's highly unlikely. Poor puppy needs more room to play than a 25th storey garden...

Ya... sure...

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get. Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you. Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you complete. And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

<< 倔强>>

当我和世界不一样
那就让我不一样
坚持对我来说就是以钢克钢
我如果对自己妥协
如果对自己说谎
即使别人原谅，我也不能原谅

最美的愿望
一定最疯狂
我就是自己的神，在我活的地方

[ 我和我最后的倔强
握紧双手绝对不放，下一站是不是天堂
就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强
我在风中大声的唱，这一次为自己疯狂
就这一次我和我的倔强 ]*

对爱我的人别紧张
我的固执和善良
我的手越肮脏，眼神越是发光
你不在乎我的过往
看到了我的翅膀
你说被火烧过，才会出现凤凰

逆风的方向
更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡，只怕自己投降

[*]

就这一次让我大声唱
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦 (x3)
就算失望不能绝望
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦 (x3)

就这一次我和我的倔强

<< 五月天 >>
词，曲：阿信

Whisky

Meet my folks' new golden retriever puppy... at least i _think_ its a goldie. His name is Whisky and i've always wondered if that's such a good choice for the dog. Firstly, the Whisky we had before (my brother's mini schnauzer puppy) didn't make it through winter in China. Secondly, the colour of his coat looks more like BEER than 'whisky'. And lastly, his personality is quite bubbly, definitely not mellow and 'aged' like hard liquor. Perhaps he would be more suited to a name like... Champagne! Except that it sounds way too odd and 'girly'. Hahaha. Anyway, the point is moot. He is already responding to 'whisky', just that it look really odd when a big bouncy puppy comes pounding whenever we call.

无聊的一天

在一个人的办公室里，我很自然的就不想做我该做的工作。是已经厌倦了这份“职业“还是忘了责任感是什么？总有一种很难解释的疲惫与顺序而来的无奈。我想我一定是累了。不只是肉体上的疲惫，更是心灵上的疲倦。我懊恼为何原本对这工作充满活力的我，如今变成这样一个连踏出工作室的力气也没有的人。真的很可悲，很可笑。

以前工作是我向往的一件事。每天早上会很开心的来上班，很开心能看见小朋友。也许工作已经变质了吧。随着工作”年纪“的增加，我的责任也开始变得复查，变得乏味。每个星期不是开会，就是开会。老开些只会浪费时间与精神的会。工作的中心不再是孩子们，而是无聊得程序与条例。一些大家都无法一致认同得程序，无法理解得条例。每一次得会议上都好像战场般，见到不同人站在不同的立场上争个你死我活。可惜的是我也必须这样，不然也难保自己的意念与看法。正如杀场上的士兵，敌不过的就得听命与他人，也得假装无所谓。毕竟我也得生存在这恶竟里，不是吗？

不要为我惋惜以熄灭的热诚，也不要为我感到懊恼这一切的不公平。人生就是如此，没有变迁更不可能有人生所谓的转捩点。我看也该是我踏出去转动转动的时候了！

Finally...

终于有了"南极星"，不用在愁不能用华文来记载一些以前想要以华文来表达的情绪和事情。甚至可以让我不用在烦恼这么阅读一些华语或粤语的网页了。这些事可能对一般人来说不是件难事，但对偶尔电脑白痴的我却不一定是件轻而一举的事。嗨！也认了吧！不行就是不行。不用在多加解释为何不行了。有个可以替我解决电脑语文的软件，虽然得付出一点"代价" 但重比求人老是跟我讲解一些如何下载某些与某些软件，解释如何调正某些与某些电脑的细节与程序来的好吧？或许是我对这方面的常识不多，还是脑筋不成开窍，但总算少了一件让人心烦的事。

初次运用这软件，不是很顺手。应该是我很久没以华语拼音来输入资料了吧？显得有些陌生和迟钝。错字也肯定一大堆。希望再练习练习就会比较顺手了。另一件奇怪的事，不知这么搞的，当我以华文来写出感想时，"语气" 总有些不自然。非常的'规矩' ，就像是中学时期填写作文一般。怪别扭的。不懂这改得了吗？*嘻嘻*

Great local tv...

I never thought i would say this but i think the love anthology series showing on channel 5 every tuesday night is one the best example of great local tv series ever. I've caught everyone of them so far and i am completely "wow-ed". The series of 'tele-movies' has one of the best cinematography i've ever seen locally, wonderful storylines, commendable acting from a largely 'non-famous' cast with none of the 'over-the-top' performances we have been getting from local sitcomes and channel serials, and generally good pacing, editing and directing. I am no expert but darn, it is REALLY good! Hope to see more of from this series...

PS: And thanks to gpa for the correction.. *paiseh*

Unsaid

ears plugged into
songs heard
only in the
head to words
unheard and eyes
downcast

its only that
much to say not
just saying its
listening to
songs heard
only in the head

words unheard in
the head but
listened to
songs overcast
when it can
only be so isn't

it just don't
fill up the empty
void with words
unheard but listen
to songs overcast
on me

Back & Tired

Back from trip and tired as hell. It doesn't help when my folks' golden retriever puppy insist on waking us up at 5 something in the morning by opening our door & popping his big head on the bed. Still, a fantastically friendly chap and oh-so-CUTE! Think he went about mad with so many people playing with him that he ended up throwing tantrums (whinning, barking, tearing up toilet paper) when he didnt get any attention...

Nothing much to say about the trip... cept, too much food, too much shopping, too much people (Its national day in china on Oct 1st), too much smog, too much noise! Not all of that is bad since i am quite used to it but not sure how for the others. Guess will leave the judgement up to them. Must be quite an unusual experience for them since its not the typical china tour thingy, esp when you are roped in suddenly as an impromptu wedding event planner cum decorator for one of my dad's employees at the office. After half a day of hurriedly buying materials, trying to figure out what chinese people actually want for weddings (esp if its a east meets west at makeshift church type wedding), sorting out colour schemes, putting up stools and decors and finally the actually wedding itself, i must say i did feel a certain sense of pride and feeling of a job well-done at the end of it.

Folks looked fine but guess they could always do with more company from us kids, not that i am very good company for them, esp my mom. But it was good... no major major outbreak... and i did have the help of the MP3 player at timely moments when avoiding tricky questions. Heh heh

Could do with another break after this one though. Think that in the excitement of doing so many things (from folks to friends), i actually forgot i was suppose to be resting... and finishing up my reports. Sighh... Oh well...

In Conversation...

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Originally uploaded by AuRoRiN & MoOoK.

Conversation between hubby and cat...

My view for this weekend...

Humen 1 - View from Al's folks apartment
Originally uploaded by AuRoRiN & MoOoK.

Going to bring a couple of my colleagues to Humen over our long weekend (Children's day holiday + Polling day leave) from thurs till monday. Haven't made up my mind if it is a good or not-so-good thing because i am not sure how i should 'host' them. But then, they are really nice people and i guess if you like to shop, eat and sing ktv at minimal cost, Humen is the place for you. A tad worried about the weather, especially the pollution and the smog is pretty horrible at times. Guess i will just do what i always do when i get there, stay pretty much indoors (be it at home or in the retail outlets). Not quite the initial idea of lying in the sun and pristine beaches relaxing ourselves but at least i know the shopping would be good!

Evening out

Its been a while since i stayed out till wee hours with friends. Used to be a time when it was a weekly event but i guess things changed... with age, with interest (or the lack of), and of course, with marriage. I guess i ought to feel like i should be responsible and 'pious' enough to want to confine my social activities to dinners with friends and nothing beyond a midnight movie with hubby in tow. To a certain extend i do feel responsible and.. what's the word, mature? grown-up? to stay within the unstated human boundaries of behaviour subscribed for people of my age and.. hmm martial status. BUT, frankly i can't honestly say that i totally believe in doing it within those boundaries and will do it wholeheartedly without complains. The inherent contradiction within me makes me feel defensive and angry... with myself and my inability to settle into being either happily responsible, wilfully selfish or confidently 'balanced'.

Sometimes I wish i could do things without thinking that i need to worry about how others' feel, or at least being able to successfully disregard them. I don't like to explain myself and wish that i do not know that i have to explain myself. Yet i do know, but i wont (or don't want to) so i feel like shit. Guess life isn't quite that structured and boxed up into easy to use compartments with universal SOP available. Sounds crazy and overly self-indulgent but... but nothing. Perhaps that's all it is and life goes on, with me in it, happy, frustrated, upset, indifferent or otherwise.
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Back to the evening.

Dinner at Basil Alcove at Fortune Ctr was great. Cheap & delicious food and an entertaining chef who was so nice as to help us unlock the toilet in the building and escort us to the lift to the carpark when it was late (Thanks Xander!). A cosy little place for dinner and drinks, top up by a nice little chat with the owner/chef. Highly recommended for the food, prices and hospitality. Of course, it doesn't hurt to have really good friends sharing the food, drinks and conversation with you (better when one of them has a tendency to include people around him into it as well!). After dinner it was a mapcap attempt to crash a party that sue babes told us about at some guy's penthouse where we had to first dash to find somewhere to buy some booze as our 'entrance' fee... A fantastic deal especially when the 10 bottles of beer we bought were in exchange for no-holds-barred endless liquor from the bar counter (what bourbon coke? Just give me the bourbon!).

Then it was people watching all the way for me since i was the designated driver for the evening. Not that i mind since heavy drinking wasn't quite my thing anyway. It was just wicked to be with a incorrigible twerp and a sassy babe together for the rest of the evening watching other people getting wasted and being incredibly stupid (its terrible how you can say absolutely meaningless things and have some wasted guy/girl blabbering like a baby about their lives) from our really cool garden table vantage point. By the time we settled into our corner, sue has arrived in gorgeous 80s style top and matching eye-shadow (theme of party is the 80s btw). All me and angie could do was pull our ponytails to the side so as to not look too out of place amongst people in weird-ass spandex and wild rock&roll hair wig walking around.

It was a mad mad party where only a couple of us were sane (Twerp though was halfway there cos he was getting high enough to make us want to drag his ass home yet sober enough to take what he says seriously) and sober enough to listen to running commentary about humour social behaviour and others playing 'The Game' from the expert himself. Imagine spending the evening with close friends sharing a wicked little secret that only you all were in on it while others ain't, as well as using it to your advantage. Priceless! And being the good friend that he is, twerp really brought the party (at our little corner) up a notch with his absolutely irreplacable sense of humour and character. That's 4 thumbs up from me and angie, you little crap! :D I think angie would agree that it has been one of the most fun thing we have done in a while and it wouldnt have been possible without a certain little twerp from Perth and his rather indepth (not to mention firsthand) knowledge of a certain wicked little book.

By the time we cut out of the party it was almost 3.30 (and someone's flight couple of hours later at 7am and he has not packed yet). Still, it was 3 laughing idiots in the middle of the road at 3.30am that makes it all worthwhile. And more so for us two girls, as there's probably a certain sense of liberation that is beginning or gonna being to be harder to come by, that makes it all the more the crazy harmless fun that it is. Of course this was not something i would do often (since the company really makes that difference)... but once a while.. heck, i wouldn't miss it for the world. Next year's party anyone? *chuckles*

Not sure about this...

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or even a completely different life. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

My funni Hunni on our first anniversary...

Encounter of the.. weird kind
Originally uploaded by AuRoRiN & MoOoK.

Here's my dearest hubby... a bit on the odd and goofy side but a really nice chap.

Sure, the last year hasn't been exactly a bed of roses (what is?) and we learnt new things about each other. Some of which are good, some bad, some remotely disturbing and some... let's just say that they are pending 'judgement'. Anyway, any journey where you learn, is a worth-while one. There are just that many nice things amongst the difficult ones that makes one look forward to growing old together. As usual he is the optimist that perks up this pessimist when the going gets tough... though there are days when i can swore that he sometimes delibrately do things just to rile me up. Can a husband-wife relationship gets any more confusing? :)

Anyway for our first year anniversary, i threw him a big big surprise by checking us into Ritz carlton (WooOo bathtub with a view!) and having a nice dinner together. He was totally clueless even up till the point when my brother (my accomplice) drove him to the hotel and gave him the room number to go to. Sounds sordid but hey... at least we are already married! *chuckles* Anyway, it was a good weekend and let's just keep it at that.

Guess our 'road' is still long and its the only first pit-stop... let's hope the rest of the journey together would just be as wonderful, though a little less 'disagreements' at times would be good too. *smiles*

Seeing Red

Its OK to look up...
Originally uploaded by AuRoRiN & MoOoK.

You must admit that this is a most interest perspective...one that is seldom taken by anyone; looking up at a lady's 'knickers' from under her skirt. But that's where we landed up while visiting Yokohama Modern Art Museum one saturday morning.

I really take my hat off to the ladies taking turns to sit on the high chair while watching different passerby crawling under her humongous red skirt to get to her 'bottoms' (often helping them along by giving encouragement/direction and moving her skirt).

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I think one's journey is often enriched (in some cases, made definitive) by experiences such as these... little 'incidents' beyond a guidebook...

Me, Chip & Dale

Me, Chip & Dale
Originally uploaded by AuRoRiN & MoOoK.

Finally, with the latest addition of our Disneyland & final leg Tokyo shots, all our Japan photos are uploaded. *Phew* tough work for wilkie and he had to spent a number of days/nights outside of his work to do it.

*Pat pat dearie's head*
Thank you!
*muaks*

Heeee... I think my smile with Chip & Dale said it all :-D

Say "Cheese"!

Crab bathed in neon lights...
Originally uploaded by AuRoRiN & MoOoK.

Man... now i have an image of crab baked with cheese in my head.

Right. Got to clear that off in a hurry.

Back at Osaka Aquarium, i remembered being entralled by the giant hokkaido crabs because it looked nothing like the crab we usually see. Definitely not thinking of baked crabs then... To a certain extend, there was a certain reverence while viewing these majestic creatures. Feels a little guilty now that we've been eating them actually after seeing how big they could grow.

What's the word for people who abstain from eating seafood? Hmmm is there such a word in the first place?

Anyhow, here's one really cool looking crab...

Tokyo Tower

Tokyo Tower
Originally uploaded by AuRoRiN & MoOoK.

The 'famed' Tokyo Tower at night. First time i really paid attention to it was because it was the recurring theme in one of those japanese serials that i was crazy over at one time. Can't remember what's the title but it had Takuya Kimura in it. Anyway, here's the real Tokyo Tower viewed from Mori Tower. Much better view than being on it i think. Besides, heard that Tokyo Tower is sort of a tourist trap, so what's the point? It's probably better viewed from afar...

Tokyo at night

Tokyo at night
Originally uploaded by AuRoRiN & MoOoK.

I quite like this nightshot of Tokyo from the top of Mori Tower's Tokyo Sky Deck in the very trendy Roppongi Hills (freaky expensive designer stuff). Its 54-storey high and offers a panoramic view (well almost) of Tokyo. We get to see Tokyo Tower and even as far as Disneyland. Well technically we couldn't see Disneyland at night but we did see the nightly fireworks from that distance though.